03 12 / 2013
It’s the month when you reflect what happened throughout the year.
The good days and the bad.
The happy and and the sad.
I still remember vividly, the sweet whisper ringing in my ears when 2013 was about to start, accompanied with the sight of Manhattan lights,
"This year is gonna be a new beginning for you."
I didn’t know what it meant. I assumed it’s because I just ended a chapter of living abroad for 3 years.
But now that a year has passed,
I finally get what it meant.
Sure, I accomplished stuff.
I learned how to drive.
I built and ran business(es). And it’s doing better than ever. Started to lead a group of youth, and soon we’ll multiply.
I went to New freaking York, East Coast and Canada. NYC, baby!!
I met you.
But my biggest accomplishment this year,
which took all of my strength, my faith, and too many tears,
but finally I gained something that I didn’t have for the first 22 years of my life,
THIS is a new beginning.
11 11 / 2013
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You’re just what he wanted to make.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart"
So that into his likeness you’d grow.
11 11 / 2013
22 10 / 2013
God did not save you to tame you.
Well-behaved women rarely make history."
22 10 / 2013
20 10 / 2013
08 10 / 2013
Sometimes when we’ve been hurt too many times, we begin to develop particular mentality.
We begin to see ourselves as the victim. Life’s and love’s victim. We indulge in it.
We get accustomed to the bad things happening around us, we begin to see it as “normal”.
It’s “normal” when someone takes us for granted.
It’s “normal” when someone enters and leaves our life abruptly, leaving scars.
It’s “normal” that our expectation doesn’t meet the reality.
That sounds about right, we thought.
we begin to put up walls.
we hide behind it.
behind those strong exterior walls,
lies a scared little girl,
afraid to get hurt. again.
we begin to forget, it becomes something new to us.
the fact that “YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.”
Concept of happiness sounds odd.
…. until you met someone.
Someone that makes you laugh out loud, louder than life,
Someone that you can be yourself with, stupid, crazy, loud self,
Someone you can have effortless conversation with after a long tiring day,
someone that makes you… happy.
and unlike others, he stays.
and unlike others, the pieces of the puzzle fits.
So here I am, telling you,
my fierce lionesses,
STOP GIVING SO MUCH POWER TO YOUR PAST!!
It’s all a matter of choice.
To keep being afraid and pushing people away because of your irrational fear,
or to shake it off and move on. Be happy.
If I may throw in my two cents to you ladies,
08 10 / 2013
She keeps worrying.
He keeps giving her reasons why she shouldn’t.
He yells it out loud, even.
She built walls.
The past forced her to.
He faithfully takes the brick one by one, until the wall comes down.
She makes a list why it won’t work out.
He grabs the paper and tear it off.
She can’t say much now, but can only say…
06 10 / 2013
02 10 / 2013
"Scars is God’s proof that He’s big enough to win our battle. He’s a healer when life cuts you open.
Scars is our proof to the enemies, “look where you tried to take me out, and where you didn’t succeed.”
Scar up, people. Show the world where you’ve been. “
Steven Furtick, 2013.
27 9 / 2013
31 8 / 2013
Go easy on me.
Thank you for the lessons.
Thank you for the people you (abruptly) brought to my life.
But most of all, thank you,
I.. feel again.
Unfortunately, with a heavy heart, I had to change the tense.
Seme part of us had to die,
before we could truly live.
Some questions are better left unanswered.
No, no, not bitter. I’m better.
New month marks a new chapter in the book of life.
So let’s open the new chapter, no turning back,
… and your character just got hit by the bus.
24 8 / 2013